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CAN YOU HEAR ME PLEASE
Contrary to my age and inability, I jump and leap up the stairs with all my
Herculean efforts,
To have a quick peep into my mother’s room with a bleeding heart and a head
full of compressed torments!! Oh it hurts!!!
For years in succession, I have been watching, gulping down and constantly
on tenterhooks,
The untold physical sufferings and sea of troubles that she is enduring
.Not a drop of water flows down my throat!
My heart brims with content and a thousand beams lit up my face. My Mom
will survive another day. She looks Fine!!
While talking loudly to her in the ear, I carry on with all my daily chores
with a vivacity never undermined!
Mom can never speak nor turn a finger on her own. What matters! She is much
alive yet another day. My gain!
She has become a baby. Through endless talking, singing, caressing,
laughing and crying, the day goes off with full sunshine!!
Quintessence of good nature, pleasing manners and above all her bosom full
of love, for us, she was the most unpretentious Mother!!
A faint mental indisposition slowly dragged her into the dismal abyss, the
most dreaded Dementia which sucks away all together,
The resources of the brain, gradually, in a methodical manner, so rudely so
treacherously, under our watchful eyes and careful scrutiny!! A TREMOR!!
With umpteen hands and hearts, flowing with help in abundance, I tried to
save her from the silent killer! Impossible, I cried louder and louder!!
Can you save her from forgetting the daily chores? Can you save her from
forgetting the names of her beloved ones?
Can you save her from forgetting to eat, drink, read, write, talk and smile
on her own?” NO". I kept chanting to myself" Yesterday she was
better". Oh silence!!
I am losing my Mom day by day, to that Demon, with my hands chained. My
body shudders and goes numb at hearing my inner voice. Plagued with
bitterness!!
I wring my hands, weep and gnash my teeth, bathe in tears just to watch my
Mom transforming herself into a newborn babe. Let bygones be bygones!!
To keep the remaining memory alive, Dementia calls for continuous
interaction with many more new faces and new voices other than the familiar
and stereotyped!
Hiding my despair, I used to engage in non-stop ripples of laughter, fresh
smiles, a very sunny and bright atmosphere and a galaxy full of attractive
posters,
which might catch my Mom's eyes!!
Any visitor is a Godsend delight! The piling odd jobs cause nightmares, but
still I keep looking at the door for a guest, who is indeed a welcome
guide!!
If not I, somebody may open her eyes, which remain closed for endless
hours! From today, Ma is not able to open her eyes even!! I keep gaping at
her with my mouth wide!!
A Drought hit land, will regain the milk and honey when the showers make
magic. But Mom's bountiful stocks of her brain had withered once and for
all!
The paucity for movement, speech and all the other innumerable nuggets of expressions
had become permanent. A hunchback had formed for my Dad, who was standing
tall!
The Doctor's medicines, prescribed with the utmost concern, preponderance
and prudence, worked wonders during unimaginable dire situations,
bringing back the Elixir Of Life to my Mom's fall!
A Fine -Tuned lady, she was, my Mother never gained back the forgotten
conversations, or the memories of her house and her near ones!!
"Please call me by my name Ma. Do not push yourself to the
wall".
But we did not let go the days as plain as a pikestaff!! With profound help
from stretched out hands, Dad and myself strained our every nerve with
verve and vigor.
We took Mom out to breathe the fresh air, to capture lots of sunshine and
meet many more new smiling faces. Mother could neither respond nor move an
eyelid. But her inner self was still alive. That
domain, "The Towering and Overpowering Dementia" still did not
conquer!!
Transferring my Mom into a wheel chair, we kept strolling her into several
parts of the house the entire time keeping her connected with music and
rapid loud conversations. My hands were always on her,
though my thoughts wandered, in search of an Oasis for my Mother!
Happiest were the days, when I had always cuddled, teased, talked
incessantly, questioned, answered, hugged her close for hours and begged
her to come back to normal. Contrary to her dwindling
memory, Mom and I cherished a rapport that will last forever!!
Before the PHANTOM was looming large, and my Mom was losing her radiance,
God had descended on our minds to warn us of the danger murking large with
numerous poisonous fangs!!
But ALAS! Beyond our myriad sincere pains, my Mom got herself entangled in
the most complex whirlpool, unknowingly going through a very smooth
transition from the very best to the worst of
times!!
Mom had lived and experienced a lot of greener pastures, and fully basked
under the unlimited affectionate showers of her husband, my Dad, who had
made a mark in the map of Heaven, with his snow
-white smiles!
Still, of all the hazards and shortfalls, Mom lived a life cascaded with
love and protection, from her children and grand children. God was indeed
cruel to her. He inflicted daggers in my heart by making
me watch the mortifying transition, my flesh corroded with appalling
stings!!
Mother was bedridden for a span of seven years and passed away in January
2010. My INTENTION is to ward off the danger some of your Moms may go
through.
My Mother was 79 and I am 54, yet the search for her lap full of warmth and
passion is never ending. Loved ones clutch my hands with the assurance of
the ROCK of Gibraltar, to come out of the
groove.
Dementia the rival unsurpassed, had brought in, Seizures, Pneumonia,
Hypo-Glycaemia, Parkinson's, Hallucinations and a battalion of other
disorders, for my Mother, even the names unheard of! TRUE!!!
I REQUEST YOU "THE YOUNGER GENERATION" NOT TO LOSE YOUR MOM AS I
LOST! WITHDRAWAL SYMPTOMS AND INCOHERENT SPEECH ARE THE FOREMOST CULPRITS
FOR SURE!!
I have a few thoughts about our strong bonding with none other than the
"Official Partner" in our life. THE GREEN TEA!! Socialization
eradicates loneliness. Green Tea stimulates the mind for productive
interaction and unconfused state of mind! We can make a start!!
Succulent and exotic, the brewing flavor invites you to gulp down the
aromatic liquid and instantly become ecstatic!! The Black Mockery, The
Enormous Red Carpet of Treachery and The Yellow Pangs
Of Instability slowly disappear, making us smarter!!
The All Pervading Blue Patches of Suppressions and Depressions that form
the Main Database for the most uninvited ailment Dementia alias Departure
From Normal Life will be scurried fast from our
Cerebrum and Cerebellum and flushed into the gutter with a startle!!
The focused beginning will enable us to rebuild the broken castles and
breakthrough all hassles to emerge as the strongest minded citizens. True
experiences from my heart!!
Old age can still be as fresh as a daisy, when we do not cocoon ourselves
into solitude. Shunning away the communication from our closest to our
bosom, when they are away from us.
Nothing is lost. Physical and mental disabilities are part and parcel of
the package that we have brought with us, when we were born into this
world. On our health they should not have a crush!!
Distances are shortened by technological inventions. Why cannot we swim
with the tide, take a favorable turn and reap a good harvest? Acquaintances
strengthen the bonds of harmony. Let us fight to
the finish!!
When the wind and weather permits, let us sail to safety, setting an
example for the youngsters by proving that “OUR MENTAL AND PHYSICAL HEALTH
ARE IN A FLOURISH"!!
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